When my husband and I made the decision for me to be a stay at home mom we knew our budget was going to be tight. We have always been very frugal with our money so as long we knew we had God’s blessing everything was going to work out for the best. Now I’m not going to lie, there have been days when I would look at our bank account and think to myself, “Oh my goodness, we’re not going to make it!” and yet somehow, we always manage to have just enough for what we need and often a little extra. It comes flying at us in all kinds of ways from overtime at my husband’s job to surprise e-bates cash back checks in the mail. The point is it always comes just when we need it. I have come to call this “God’s Magic Money”.
This was really hard for me in the beginning, because while I would not say I have an obsession for money by any means I always like to be a little ahead of the game when it comes to my finances. This tends to get me in a bit of trouble, however, because I will deprive myself of these I enjoy just to stay on a perfect budget. In my weird mind if I go get my nails done and then the dish washer breaks, I’ll feel guilty because that’s money that could’ve been spent towards the dishwasher. My husband tells me I’m insane for thinking that way and I must agree with him. What I’ve come to learn is my worry wasn’t really about not having enough money to cover expenses because I knew good and well we had the money it was really about my lack of trust in God to carry us through hard times.
Now that I’m a stay at home mom I’ve grown much closer to God. I am learning to trust Him in those “We’re not going to make it!” moments because I am learning with each new day, He always makes a way for us. By putting my trust in Him, I’m able to enjoy the special moments I share with my son instead of letting my worry rob me of my joy.